patients write about their experiences with Lifetrack therapy
On the brink of divorce.
to the wrong person?
resisted seven months of treatment on six medications.
side effect of a prescribed medication for her husband was depression.
years of depression treated by seven psychiatrists.
"I should not have
"We love each other
but keep hurting each other."
When terror of panic
attacks take over.
When body screams
out for help.
been married for seven years and nearly divorced her husband twice,
Linda wrote the following, after Lifetrack therapy had transformed
her marriage and her life.
I thought I was there only to assist in my husband's therapy.
However, as it turned out, I was to learn the meaning of "being
happy together" by participating in therapy as one of the three
In the middle of crisis in my marriage of seven years, I was wondering
what had gone wrong. My marriage used to be filled with so much
joy and happiness. I was beginning to question the institution
of marriage itself, which did not seem to meet dynamic human needs,
bringing so much disappointment and pain. I was also convinced
that "happiness" is something that each of us can and must shape
according to our unique individual needs and preferences.
My "definition of happiness" then was; "I am always happy, and
my happiness must not depend on anyone else." In other words,
I had believed that "happiness in marriage" was up to each individual
partner. I believed that my happiness did not depend on my husband,
and happiness in marriage was possible only between two independent
and already happy individuals."
beginning of therapy, I thought I must help my husband become
happy, so that I can be with a "happy husband." This sense of
superiority and officiousness was shattered when Dr. Ishizuka
pointed out that my daily self-rating graphs clearly showed my
self sphere to be above intimacy and achievement. This indicated
a high level of defensiveness on my part -- an effort to keep
myself unaffected by marriage and work, neither of which was doing
well. I realized that I had my own problems.
My previous personality would respond to "It takes two to tango"
with "Find something that I can do alone." I was trying to be
happy alone in the world of tango! I have come to realize that
intimacy cannot be built without an honest, caring and committed
partner. I used to tell myself; "I must do to my partner what
I would like him to do to me," as if it were some sort of solitary
game. Therapy has given me experience of fully interdependent
and reciprocal closeness with unconditional giving and receiving
of love, which has led me to heightened joy and happiness in marriage
that I did not know was possible.
Marriage used to be very complicated. I used to ask myself, Is
marriage a life of two strangers bound by rules and restrictions
imposed by social convention? How can I turn these restrictive
obligations into something more enjoyable? Once I learned the
meaning of intimacy, marriage turned into something very simple.
Intimacy has had a strange effect on me. Now I feel like talking
with my husband, just to hear his voice, even when I have nothing
specific to tell him. This is possible only because my husband
has changed and responds positively to my phone calls and emails
to his office without pressing business.
with him has brought an unexpected change in my attitude at work.
I used to dread to go to work often wanting to quit only if I
could afford to, while my husband always put pressure on me to
remain independent and self-supporting. Now I think, "I am lucky
to have a job." Most amazingly, I no longer get irritated over
interpersonal minutiae at the office that used to make me to brood
for days. I no longer involve a third party in my conflicts with
my colleagues at work, a practice that usually only made the situation
worse. However, it is not as if I don't care because I have a
wonderful fiance, as I felt during our courtship. Now I naturally
focus on key issues and deal with various situations more effectively
with better perspective, thus avoiding unnecessary negative complications.
However, the most amazing change was my own personality transformation.
I have come to realize that I used to express my hurt feelings
through anger toward my husband. Instead of trying to change his
behavior through angry threats and intimidation, I now tell him,
"I am hurt if you do that," and he responds immediately. I no
longer get angry with him. I am enjoying daily life without anger
and full of peace and joy.
For a long time, I had secretly hoped that my husband would receive
professional help ever since I discovered his dark side, which
caused him to suffer form self-imposed problems. However, I had
never thought that I myself could change so fundamentally by participating
in his therapy. Now, I feel every day that it was right for me
to have married him. I cannot thank Dr. Ishizuka enough for all
Linda's Graphs and Dr. Ishizuka's Analyses
Rick is considered by his superiors as a star among his colleagues.
Yet he has not been happy with his work and often thinks of quitting
for something more challenging and rewarding. During seven years
of marriage, he nearly left his wife twice. When he came to seem
me, their divorce papers were ready to be signed in five days.
As their day of signing approached, Rick appeared depressed. Concerned,
Linda had encouraged him to see a physician, who referred him
to me. Three months after their 12-month therapy ended, Rick wrote
about the experience:
sessions at Dr. Ishizuka's had become so much a part of our routine
that we felt strange after we stopped going 3 months ago. However,
the essence of what we have learned through 12 months of therapy
has become more clearly crystallized in our minds.
I have learned that we have the capacity to make important personal
choices about our lives, and each action carries responsibilities
and consequences. Blaming others and circumstances for our suffering
and unhappiness does not solve any problems. We must use our intellect
to make responsible decisions, rather than allowing our "emotions"
to dictate them. The most important thing is to achieve happiness
in life. And happiness results from the coexistence of strong
self, intimacy and achievement spheres, which must be in balance.
Many of us overlook love within our reach,
becoming desperate and disappointed for lack of love. To compensate
for this lack of love in our personal lives, we seek satisfaction
in our work. Many of us sacrifice our families or closeness with
our partners in life, with the excuse of "work comes first." Those
who can only reassure themselves by comparing their accomplishments
and possessions with those of others fluctuate between an empty
sense of superiority over others on one hand and disappointment
and a sense of inferiority on the other, losing sight of our true
sense of what we are.
who have become so used to judging themselves by relative and
one-dimensional performance may end up judging themselves by professional
and material success measured by results and profits, losing sight
of what is truly important in life. Others, who become exhausted
by disappointing personal relationships, withdraw into themselves
after traumatic experiences of being betrayed by loved ones, or
failing to make loved ones happy with them. I have come to realize
through therapy that I have been a classic example of both these
types of people.
I realize that counseling over one year cannot solve all the problems
in life for me, and I must continue to make necessary changes
in myself. However, my encounter with Dr. Ishizuka has been an
important life-changing event that has given impetus and direction
to my lifelong search for happiness, closeness and success.
I am sure I will encounter difficult challenges that bring pain
and suffering in the future, but I feel I am now well equipped
with a method to overcome each future challenge. When I face a
challenge, I will remember what I have learned in therapy with
Dr. Ishizuka to strengthen intimacy in the process of overcoming
obstacles, and to make sure that I will not lose perspective over
"what is truly important in life." I know that the end of counseling
is not the end but the beginning of further growth in overcoming
new and greater challenges in life.
I am comforted by the
thought that I can always count on Dr. Ishizuka should I ever
need timely advice in the future. We will continue Lifetrack daily
self-rating as we did during therapy, and we will review and analyze
our own graphs through www.mylifetrack.com to help each other
maintain and build on what we have gained in therapy. If we ever
need to consult with Dr. Ishizuka, we can call him from wherever
we may be and review our up-to-date graphs over the Internet as
we talk. However, our goal is to continue daily self-rating and
analysis ourselves so that we will be able to keep growing, overcoming
future challenges on our own without ever calling him. (Written
for the benefit of future patients.)
Rick's Graphs and Dr. Ishizuka's Analyses
Frank is married to a very unhappy woman, Beth, who had experienced
frequent bouts of anxiety, rage, multiple physical symptoms, severe
depression and frequent irrational violence against him. He wrote
the following after a difficult but eventually successful course
of therapy had ended. Beth's diagnosis was borderline personality
therapy from Dr. Ishizuka for a year-and-half, accompanying my
wife who had suffered severe anxiety and depression over the years.
Initially, I had trouble accepting the notion that I had to participate
in every therapy session with my wife as if I were a patient,
too. I had never thought that I had anything to do with my wife's
illness. As therapy progressed, however, I came to realize that
I was completely wrong. In fact, I had played a central role in
her distress, and only I could make fundamental contributions
to my wife's recovery. Through weekly sessions (later every two
weeks), my wife improved dramatically. Thanks to therapy, my wife
has overcome her long-standing and intense fear of being in crowded
places and constant multiple physical symptoms that kept her sick
most of the time. More than anything else, therapy has strengthened
our closeness and taught us how to recognize stress symptoms and
overcome them together by getting even closer. We could not have
imagined how we could possibly become so close and strong when
we started therapy. We cannot imagine what would have happened
to us if we did not receive Dr. Ishizuka's therapy. The Lifetrack
Web site is a welcome innovation that allows us to input our self-rating
daily and immediately examine Lifetrack graphs. (He contributed
this to a public Web site that lists doctors and includes posted
assessments from former patients.)
Frank's Graphs and Dr. Ishizuka's Analyses
Beth has suffered for a long time from anxiety attacks, irritability,
multiple physical symptoms, bouts of depression and suicidal thoughts,
and irrational behavior when upset. She clearly qualified as a
borderline personality. After a year and a half of difficult and
eventful therapy, she wrote her assessment of Lifetrack:
Dr. Ishizuka when I suddenly became fearful of being in crowds,
riding in trains and losing control of my body, spending days
in bed twisting and turning and unable to sleep at night. I nearly
gave up therapy before it started, because I had to take a train
to the doctor's office. However, he somehow managed to convince
me to take the train despite my fear and anxiety symptoms. I am
grateful that I went. Now, I take airplanes with my husband on
trips and experience happiness that I had never known before,
without any symptoms. I never dreamed that I would change so much
in just a few months. As an aside, I have gotten over my long-standing
fear of large dogs thanks to Daisy (Dr. Ishizuka's golden retriever)
who always welcomed us with such genuine enthusiasm and affection.
This is a big change in me. (She contributed this to a public
Web site that lists doctors and includes posted assessments from
Beth's Graphs and Dr. Ishizuka's Analyses
Terry, suffering from severe, nearly chronic depression, had
been treated for seven months at a major medical center. There
she received six different medications every day without any sign
of improvement. Terry wrote the following after nearly a year
of Lifetrack therapy.
started therapy with Dr. Ishizuka last year, when I was getting
desperate, since my severe depression was not improving despite
7 months of treatment at a major medical center taking 6 medications
daily. The entire therapy was conducted over the phone, through
once weekly 2-hour sessions with Dr. Ishizuka whom I had never
met. It was difficult at the beginning to spend 2 hours on the
phone on every Saturday with my husband and the doctor. Doctor
said during our first session that he expected my depression to
lift in a month and a half. I was absolutely convinced that it
would never happen and was fully expecting to spend another year
in depression. However, incredibly, I found my depression improving
during the New Year holidays. I was surprised and encouraged to
find myself watching TV with interest and concentration, while
I could not bring myself to watch it before. I also found myself
eating Christmas dinner, while I had no appetite before. I then
remembered the doctor's prediction and realized that it was about
a month and a half since we had started therapy. These unmistakable
signs of improvement gave me hope, and made me become enthusiastic
about Lifetrack therapy, listening intently holding the phone
as if it was a lifeline. I have had some ups and downs since,
but that overwhelming sense of doom has left me. Currently, I
am continuing once monthly session with Lifetrack self-rating
program to make sure that depression will never return, although
doctor Ishizuka had told us that we could stop therapy several
months ago. I am finding more joy in life than ever before, with
heightened appreciation of beauty, fun, people around, etc. Feeling
of gratitude wells up in me for everything, but above all for
the doctor and my husband. (She sent this to a public website
which list doctors, who's former patients can post comments)
Terry -- three years later:
Terry three years after her therapy had ended to ask her to review
the case example of her therapy for accuracy and to obtain her
permission to publish it. She sent me the following comments:
three years since my therapy over the phone ended.
The whole year of struggling with the nightmarish depression,
barely living day by day, is something one would like to erase
But I treasure the memory of that year as a precious experience
of my life. That year was the runway from which I was able to
take off and soar.
At the beginning
of therapy, Dr. Ishizuka told me, “Congratulations for becoming
depressed. Thanks to your depression, you will be better than
ever when you come out of it through therapy!” At that time,
I simply thought he was trying to humor me. But it has turned
out to be exactly as he had predicted. I have changed fundamentally
through therapy. The change was not simply in my personality,
or sociability, but in my understanding of the essence of life.
I had long been familiar with the concept of love through religions.
But a clear, logical, and analytical explanation from the perspective
of a psychiatrist has crystallized my understanding of love into
began when I started to think about my old age with my husband,
who has always been strong and busy at work. I started feeling
anxious about my own vulnerability for being so dependent on him.
I thought that I must become psychologically self-reliant, becoming
independent from my husband to prepare myself for life after his
departure. I became increasingly anxious and depressed as if I
were already facing the miserable solitude. I had been receiving
treatment at a major medical center, faithfully taking daily medications
for seven months without relief. Fortunately, I stumbled onto
Dr. Ishizuka through my husband’s contacts in New York.
Ishizuka advised me to do the exact opposite of what I had been
trying to do - to get closer to my husband instead of becoming
independent from him. I struggled during the first two months
in therapy, trying to follow Doctor’s advice without fully understanding
it. After two months of therapy, however, my depression started
to disappear and the darkness that had dominated my mind miraculously
lifted. Then I finally realized that Doctor was teaching me about
“love” from all angles - to get closer, depend, let depend,
accept, and so on. I then realized that I had forgotten the fundamentals
of love?to accept, stay close to, and depend on the most important
person in my life?out of selfish preoccupations with my own narcissism.
the therapy my husband and I received together, we have learned
close interdependency of love and regained the balance of our
minds. Happiness is to be loved; the loved person loves the other.
I had lost sight of such obvious fundamentals, turning away from
my husband, falling into a deep hole of depression instead of
I have been
able to overcome depression, thanks to Dr. Ishizuka’s unique
guidance and the dedicated support from my husband. These last
three years, I have been feeling like a person who has returned
to life from death, experiencing fresh appreciation and gratitude
even over daily routines. With closeness with my husband as the
axle, my relationship with others has become balanced and strengthened.
This in turn has strengthened my psychological balance, allowing
me to live positively.
to the golf I started two years ago, my physical strength has
improved, making me younger mentally and physically than I was
three years ago. I have more shared hobbies with my husband. On
weekends, we enjoy going to movies and cafes surrounded by much
Terry's case is described in Breakthrough Intimacy -
Sad to Happy through Closeness by Dr. Yukio
Graphs and Dr. Ishizuka's Analyses
Mary: is in her 40s. Her husband had become depressed after
taking medication for a year, prescribed for his physical illness.
She wrote the following several years later.
husband's personality had completely changed due to strong medications
he had received for his medical problem. After being on the medication
for a year, he became depressed and suicidal. We were at the end
of our rope when a friend advised us to see Dr. Ishizuka. Each
couple session taught me the necessity of expressing true thoughts
and feelings and getting closer to each other. Thanks to therapy,
my husband has returned to his cheerful and happy self. We tend
to think that you have to be "crazy" to see a psychiatrist, but
in reality, little things often trigger depression. I sincerely
recommend that you talk to Dr. Ishizuka when complaining to your
friends does not help anymore. He will quickly analyze and clearly
explain what is going on inside you and guide you to health and
happiness. (She contributed this to a public Web site that lists
doctors and includes posted assessments from former patients.)
Ben had chronic and treatment-resistant depression. He wrote
the following two years after his Lifetrack therapy had been completed:
suffered from depression for seven long years, having been treated
by seven psychiatrists, taking antidepressant and antianxiety
medications faithfully. Despite various treatments over the years,
symptoms of depression kept returning. Having read voluminous
self-help books, I was resigned to accept depression as my lifelong
companion, when I stumbled onto Dr. Ishizuka while my psychoanalyst
was on vacation during one long summer. At the beginning, I was
taken aback by Dr. Ishizuka's approach since it was so different
from anything I had experienced in my years as a patient in search
for a cure for my depression. However, as I listened to the doctor
with warm personality and wide and deep knowledge, my perception
of self seemed to undergo significant change. I was astonished
to realize that I was doing fine, having forgotten about medications
that I had so religiously taken for seven years. (He contributed
this to a public Web site that lists doctors and includes posted
assessments from former patients.)
Ben's case is described in depth in Breakthrough Intimacy -
Sad to Happy through Closeness by Dr. Yukio Ishizuka
Ben's Graphs and Dr. Ishizuka's Analyses
Cathy, married and with a new baby, was suffering from depression.
She was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. She wrote
the following after eight months of Lifetrack therapy:
and driven, I had been a master of deception, hiding my problems
from everyone, including myself, pretending as if nothing was
wrong. However, my old tricks stopped working when I moved to
New York for my husband's new job with a child a year and a half
old. Without a friend in the big city and with a crying baby,
I was frustrated, irritated and becoming desperate when I found
Dr. Ishizuka's phone number. The doctor's simple and logical counseling
method exposed my long hidden depression, making it possible to
confront it squarely. Through the unique three-person teamwork
of Lifetrack therapy, we made a commitment to achieve happiness
through closeness. My depression slowly lifted as my bond with
my husband strengthened through therapy. I now feel that we can
together overcome any future challenges in life. Full of humor
and with a gentle smile, Dr. Ishizuka has my respect as one of
the most gifted persons of our generation, and I am eternally
grateful to him for having brought me into the sunshine of life.
(She contributed this to a public Web site that lists doctors
and includes posted assessments from former patients.)
Graphs and Dr. Ishizuka's Analyses
Ann is a successful performing artist with a tempestuous history
typical of borderline personality disorder. She had been attracted
to men who were married, with a girlfriend or otherwise unavailable
and/or inappropriate, while abusing and rejecting anyone who became
devoted and committed to her. She sought therapy because she became
depressed and volatile when she started living with a man who
was devoted to her but whom she had tried everything to get rid
of. After seven months of eventful therapy, she wrote the following:
at a loss as to how to start. I procrastinated for a long time
before finally sitting down to write this. It is terribly difficult
for me to remember and face days and years that I would rather
forget. I have been through so many horrific experiences over
the years that it is difficult to organize and order them. I suppose
that the struggle with myself must go on into the future, but
one thing I can say is that the last six months since we started
therapy has been long and painful.
I was 19 when I recognized my "black box." I could not adjust
to college, constantly escaping into a wild nightlife and overseas
trips. I would often find myself sitting alone for hours in a
cafe or bar. Emptiness dominated my life, which I tried to escape
through alcohol and sex. On the surface, I was doing well. I had
been at the top of my class, the center of attention socially
and did not have a care in the world. The only problem was that
I had frequent bouts of irrational rage and psychotic behavior.
I gradually lost control of myself, living adrift and running
away from myself. I was losing hope, dreams and even the ability
to have fun when I had my first panic attack with sudden difficulty
in breathing. I withdrew into my house for a year without being
able to enjoy anything, spending days crying, sleepless and always
frustrated, feeling like an empty shell. When I was beginning
to feel better thanks to an antidepressant a doctor had given
me, I suddenly decided to move to New York. My parents, doctor
and friends -- everyone -- desperately tried to talk me out of
coming to New York. Still, my inner voice was screaming, "You
used to have a dream, go to New York, things will get better."
I now wonder if my inner voice was telling me that in New York
I would find a man I love and Dr. Ishizuka.
The last two years in
New York had been the worst in my already tempestuous life. I
hid my inner turmoil from others, telling myself that no one else
could understand my inner battle against myself. I was feeling
depressed inside when I met Norman and, for a while, allowed myself
to be dependent on his tenderness and persistent devotion to me.
However, as we began to spend more time together, I could not
keep hiding my inner frustrations about unfulfilled dreams and
my uncontrollable, explosive emotions. Norman soon became the
outlet for my explosive emotions, which he tried hard to accept
and live with. Extreme arguments and violent fights were followed
by abnormally passionate lovemaking. I cannot remember how many
times I tried to break up with him as I alternated between depression
and psychosis. I sought Dr. Ishizuka in desperation. I did not
expect much from the encounter -- just a quick diagnosis of depression
and some medication, as usual.
The length of the first session -- two and
a half hours -- astonished me. But more than anything else, Dr.
Ishizuka's confident words floored me, making me say to myself;
"Perhaps this doctor can save me from hell." I clearly remember
my tears welling up with mixed emotions of great joy, peace, hope
and, just as strong, anxiety. I then made a bet with myself: "If
Norman agrees to participate in this therapy as the doctor proposes,
I will remain with him for life -- yes, marry him."
The first two months
of therapy were the worst. I lost myself even more because I tried
to live as a part of Norman. I tried to forget about my dreams
and independence, believing the doctor's words: "Keep getting
closer, despite increased pain." Slowly, weekly therapy session
became part of our routine, followed by predictable explosions
and fights. To open ourselves to each other was veritable torture
at times, but we managed to keep getting closer, overcoming many
explosions and fights, as we were both determined to find happiness
in life. I often run a high fever (near 40 degrees Celsius, or
104 degrees Fahrenheit) when under stress, but Norman learned
through therapy to remain calm, offering me comforting support.
We have gained from Dr. Ishizuka lifelong treasure that money
cannot buy. He has taught us that "self-confidence comes form
successful dependency on the other." We live only once, so we
should not hesitate to become as happy as we can. I used to hate
happiness, seeking unhappiness with determination. I was afraid
of happiness. The most important thing I have learned from Dr.
Ishizuka is, "By accepting and loving the other, you learn to
accept and love yourself."
Norman and I have just started our life
together and are tempted to continue receiving help from the doctor,
but we have decided to try on our own to overcome any future obstacles
I cannot express my gratitude with words. I am truly happy just
being with Norman. That's right, we have just gotten married.
We will make ourselves the happiest couple in the world. (Written
for the benefit of future patients.)
Ann's Graphs and Dr. Ishizuka's Analyses
Norman is a hard-working businessman who had largely overcome
a tormented childhood after he turned 20, becoming a highly controlled
and driven achiever. He fell in love with Ann and pursued her
with devotion and tenacity sufficient to overcome the formidable
resistance Ann had put up. At the end of Lifetrack therapy he
wrote the following:
am deeply indebted to Dr. Ishizuka. Having struggled in New York
alone without depending on anyone during the last 11 years, I
had turned into a man who was incapable of trusting and depending
on anyone. A wall separated Ann and I, but thanks to the doctor's
help, we have been able to "reprogram" our heads so that we can
become close enough in a successful, interdependent relationship.
The therapy led us to a deeper and stronger, relationship, and
to marriage. I used to be alone though surrounded by many friends.
Thanks to therapy, I have learned that a committed relationship
with one person you love can stabilize you and give you self-confidence.
Ann and I had thought that marriage was not possible for us. We
were so afraid to love too much and were expert at sabotaging
happiness. Although we loved each other, we kept hurting each
other, constantly fighting over nothing. We were baffled by our
uncontrollable habit of hurting each other, despite our deep love
for each other. Dr. Ishizuka intervened and sorted out our emotions
for us, so that we could overcome a series of crises, getting
closer each time than ever before. He taught us how to love and
how to get closer. He showed us how closeness stabilizes the mind,
giving us the most precious knowledge for living our lives.
Through three-person teamwork with the
doctor, Ann and I, we have managed to "upgrade the software that
run our heads" so that our old software -- our personalities --
have been transformed to allow us to lead happier and more satisfying
lives. The key to this counseling method is that you are not alone
as a patient. By opening up and getting closer to each other,
we can face many obstacles, and through therapy, we can learn
to overcome those obstacles, gaining the confidence and commitment
we need to share life together. Beyond simple mutual attraction
and love, we have learned about each other in depth and to take
responsibility for making each other truly happy. I have discovered,
for the first time in my life, the importance and joy of living
with, and for, another person. Thanks to the therapy sessions,
Ann and I have learned how to keep getting closer to each other
for the rest of our lives. We are confident that we will be able
to keep building a closer and happier life together. (Written
for the benefit of future patients.)
Norman's Graphs and Dr. Ishizuka's Analyses
Sally had always been healthy, active and responsible until
her first panic attack. After that attack, she lived in fear of
the next, confining herself to her house and unable to drive.
After a year of therapy, she wrote the following:
43 years old and had never been sick , considered to be an example
of good health, until one night, alone at home, I suddenly collapsed,
unable to breathe. I was taken to an emergency room by an ambulance.
Tests did not reveal any treatable abnormalities. Every subsequent
trip to the emergency room turned out to be inconclusive. I was
becoming consumed and paralyzed by the growing fear that another
attack might strike anytime. I could hardly leave the house out
of intense fear, having lost control of my own body.
My fear was intensifying with every attack, and I felt hopeless,
so I called Dr. Ishizuka. I had not met him, nor did I have any
idea what kind of treatment he offered. I was grasping for straws.
I remember at the first session feeling nervous about the humming
sound of computers in the room, surrounded by the doctor, my husband,
and Daisy (Dr. Ishizuka's golden retriever). The first session
clarified many important but unnoticed, forgotten and unfulfilled
things in my life. Tears kept flowing as if to wash away the blinder
I had on, blocking a clear view of myself.
We were surprised when
the doctor told us that we must get closer to each other, because
we had always thought we had been happily married. However, as
therapy progressed, I found myself feeling increasingly at peace
and grateful for everything. Through this paralyzing illness,
I learned that I could refuse to do things that might be too much
for me. I gradually learned to forgive myself for my faults and
limitations. The therapy sessions through four-person teamwork
(including Daisy) became something I looked forward to. The sound
of the computers no longer bothered me, and Daisy was always comforting
to me, displaying her capacity to give and receive affection so
I must sincerely thank my husband, who accompanied
me patiently and lovingly, as I struggled through therapy. Now
I feel just as strong and healthy as I felt before the first attack,
but I am much more aware of my limitations and am more patient
than before. I am back driving on highways, taxiing my children,
and enjoyed four hours at the opera the other day. I owe this
to Dr. Ishizuka, who patiently guided us through therapy, which
has become my treasured happy memory. Thank you. (Written for
the benefit of future patients.)
Sally's Graphs and Dr. Ishizuka's Analyses
Ray is a "no-nonsense" executive who began Lifetrack therapy
with many doubts about its potential to help his wife, Sally.
After therapy ended in 13 months, he wrote the following:
sudden change in Sally's physical condition some three years ago
was a great shock to her and for the rest of the family as well.
She had always been an active wife and mother who had never been
sick in bed. However, after the first attack, she suddenly lost
all her confidence in her own health, becoming fearful, passive
and tentative, barely functioning in day-to-day living. Repeated
visits to emergency rooms did not find anything wrong with her.
She was given an antidepressant, without a definitive diagnosis
except for possible "early menopausal condition" and "imbalance
of autonomic nervous system."
After another attack
last year, Sally was despondent, so she called Dr. Ishizuka. I
accompanied her to the first session without any idea what psychiatrists
do. I was impressed by the doctor's analysis that her personality,
shaped in childhood, had made her vulnerable to panic attacks
occurring when her past experience and current capacity to cope
are exceeded. However, I was taken aback by his advice to come
to weekly sessions together as a couple. Frankly, I was both surprised
and a bit annoyed. For 13 months, the doctor single-mindedly encouraged
us to get closer, debunking traditional approaches, including
medications. Months went by without much improvement, and I sometimes
wondered if this closeness-oriented therapy was doing any good.
However, I was slowly convinced by the doctor's power of persuasion.
Thanks to the therapy, Sally has returned
to her normal life. I am satisfied that she is well again, but
the doctor would certainly tell us that we must get even closer.
We intend to continue our efforts to get "closer today than yesterday,
and closer tomorrow than today" as the doctor would say. (Written
for the benefit of future patients.)
Ray's Graphs and Dr. Ishizuka's Analyses
Fran had a long history of panic attacks. She had to move
closer to work so that she could walk to her office. One day,
she read a story on the Internet of a panic-attack victim. The
next day, she developed identical symptoms and could not walk
to her office anymore. After six months of therapy, she wrote
years ago, on a train on my way home from work, I suddenly became
sick in the stomach and had to get off the train at the next station.
Following that attack, I became fearful of trains and going away
from home. I received some medication and counseling then. After
I got married and moved to New York four years ago, I had to ride
on a train for 30 minutes to work, but we had to move closer to
my work so that I could walk to my office. One day, searching
for the cure for my problem on the Internet, I read a story of
a panic-attack victim. The next day, I developed exactly the same
symptoms and could not even walk to my work. I finally found Dr.
Ishizuka in the phone book.
However, it took great determination for
me to go to the weekly sessions because his office was one hour
away by car from home, and traffic jams were inevitable. At the
beginning of therapy, I would have to go to the bathroom frequently
before we left home because my tension caused diarrhea. I nearly
gave up going several times, and my usually patient husband wanted
to quit. I begged him to continue to drive me to the doctor until
I wanted to quit, since this is the last chance I had.
painful to me that during each session, Dr. Ishizuka would remind
and encourage me to "Get closer to your husband. Praise him 30
times a day." We had been married for four years without a child,
so had a lot of time together to get close to each other. I was
confident that we got along well. In fact, it was very difficult
for me to find things to praise about my husband. In retrospect,
maybe my pride or a hidden sense of superiority was making it
During the first two months, there was no sign of improvement
in my symptoms, and I was stressed out by the conscious effort
I was making to get closer to my husband. Nothing was happening
except for continuous stress.
However, my feelings toward my husband
started to change at the end of the second month of therapy. I
found myself enjoying being with him, preparing sandwiches for
picnics on our way to the session.
the end of the third month, I had a crisis. On our way home from
a morning session, we had lunch and were driving home when I suddenly
developed a stomachache. Remembering that we would hit heavy traffic
on the way home at that hour, I begged my husband to turn around.
However, he insisted we go on, since we were more than halfway
home. Sure enough, we were caught in a traffic jam. I was in a
panic, frantically thinking of ways to escape, when it dawned
on me that "even a terrible jam such as this could not possibly
last more than an hour." I sensed sudden lessening of tension
within me, and my stomachache disappeared. This event was a turning
point, when I became able to think positively even in the worst
By the way, I had initially asked the doctor
for medications, but he advised me not to use them to avoid potential
risk to a fetus, since we were trying to have a baby. I was skeptical
and worried about not using medications, but in the end, I managed
without taking a single pill during the entire course of therapy.
the fifth month of therapy, I experienced another turning point.
The doctor said; "Have you consciously tried to become and stay
happy?" I realized then that since we can live only once, I should
make up my mind to spend my time being happy, rather than being
anxious and depressed. Since that day, I have consciously thought
of ways in which I can be happy
After six months of therapy, we "graduated," and I am happy to
report that I experience happiness every day just by looking at
my husband's face, welcoming each day with a fresh sense of anticipation.
I cannot say that my symptoms are completely gone at this stage,
but I am going to focus not on my symptoms but on increasing closeness
and happiness with my husband -- "closer today than yesterday,
and closer tomorrow than today."
Thank you Dr. Ishizuka for his kind and patient guidance and encouragement,
and for occasionally pointing out bluntly what I must do better.
My thanks also to Daisy, who has taught me how to express affection
and love. (Written for the benefit of future patients.)
Fran's Graphs and Dr. Ishizuka's Analyses
Sophie is married to a hard-working entrepreneur. Usually
sociable and responsible, Sophie suddenly developed dramatic and
severe physical symptoms during a period when her husband was
exceptionally busy and under a lot of pressure. Before seeking
help from Lifetrack, Sophie had seen several specialists who were
unable to find the cause of her symptoms. She wrote the following
at the end of her therapy that lasted 6 months.
been enjoying an active and happy life in New York for over 15
years until one day I suddenly developed excruciating pain all
over my body. I became exhausted, forgetful, irritable and unable
to concentrate on housework. Sharp and penetrating pain in my
right flank spread all over my body, particularly over my head
and back, becoming unbearable. Four specialists have examined
me with ultrasound, CT scan and so on without reaching a definitive
The most disturbing was the sharp pain in my right eye as soon
as I woke up in the morning, which made me unable to see clearly.
For some time, the world looked foggy to me, and blue sky did
not appear beautiful as it used to. I was fearful and could not
enjoy driving, which I used to love with a passion. An ophthalmologist
told me that I had developed an inflammation of the cornea from
dryness caused by stress. I could not control my own body functions
anymore. Lying awake in bed through many nights, I feared losing
my mind. I can hardly describe how upset and overwhelmed I was.
I had always been sociable and convinced that I would never get
depressed. And yet, I found myself avoiding people, withdrawing
and staying home. I hated to have to speak with people and refused
to pick up the phone. Finally, feeling hopeless, I called Dr.
I had not known the simple fact that there is a limit to one's
capacity to do things, until Dr. Ishizuka told me. I had always
thought that I could do twice or even ten times more than others.
I also thought that I always had to be number one and be admired
by others. I was driven to achieve such admiration. I was never
satisfied with my performance and kept myself busy to do more,
starting a new activity before completing the first, endlessly
rushing under pressure, cutting time for rest and recreation.
I would fall into bed in the evening exhausted, hardly able to
Since I have learned to take the four key steps -- recognition,
perspective, decision, and action -- I find myself being much
more effective. More than anything else, I experience a much greater
sense of satisfaction from what I do, without getting tired, while
genuinely enjoying what I do. Indeed, I have changed into a new
person. At the beginning, I had to take time to remember, reciting
the four key steps or writing them out on paper. However, after
the first three months of therapy, the process became natural
and spontaneous. This freedom from stress, with its accompanying
sense of ease and comfort, must mean that I had been subjecting
myself to high and chronic stress. I must have been one of those
who were "burning out" from the stress of life.
I had assumed that my busy husband must understand me without
verbal explanation, since we have been together for so many years.
However, my health crisis has helped us understand each other
much better than before and taught us to communicate our thoughts,
feelings and actions in words. At first, I did not believe Dr.
Ishizuka's analysis that my physical symptoms had been provoked
by my "closeness problem" with my husband. However, as we followed
his advice in therapy, we were astonished to find my physical
symptoms rapidly disappearing and my psychological state becoming
Therapy has dramatically changed my husband too. Once a driven
workaholic, he has become a much healthier and balanced person
with a sound perspective on life. Now we both want to spend every
day caring for each other, cherishing our time together. We used
to wrap our life completely around my husband's demanding and
unending work. Now he takes time away from work so we can have
fun and travel together.
Daily self-rating exercises have been very helpful. Lifetrack
self-rating gives us the precious time we need to stop and reflect
on the past day. I now enjoy a clear view of my surroundings.
I feel my head is clear and the air lighter, and I am confident
that I can cope with any future challenges using the four key
steps. I find myself at ease, in sharp contrast to the way I used
to feel; always harassed and hurried.
I cannot believe that I have recovered so quickly, and without
any medications. I did not believe him when the doctor first said
that we would change the "software" that runs my head. However,
I have changed beyond belief. People ask me if I have recently
gone to a heath and beauty spa, but I tell them that I have gone
for a soul-health spa.
I have always enjoyed meeting Daisy, the doctor's golden retriever,
who taught me much. Dogs like humans, can sense the mental status
of people and avoid those who are irritable. Daisy taught me that
I must be honest to myself and live with friendly smiles.
I cannot thank Dr. Ishizuka enough. My stubborn husband often
says, "We must think incrementally." He used to save all the fun
until the very last. Thanks to therapy, he has learned the importance
of today. He now plans vacations early, enjoying both his work
and hobbies. From therapy, we have learned what is the most important
and how we can live fully with satisfaction. I hope to live the
rest of my life relaxed, enjoying closeness with my partner in
life, and enjoying what I love.
Sophie's Graphs and Dr. Ishizuka's Analyses
Jane, a student in her early 20s, had became tense and irritable,
suffering from irregular menstrual periods, nausea, apathy, crying
spells, and explosive rage against her boyfriend, Tim, with whom
she had been living for a year.
day felt like living hell when I started therapy 6 months ago.
During the first session, Dr. Ishizuka said, “The only thing
you must learn in therapy is to get close to Tim. Once you are
sufficiently close to him, you will be well.” I honestly thought
it was not true. I could not believe his words. However, I was
so desperately in need of the doctor’s help, I had no choice
but to do what he said. Still, as soon as therapy started, I was
surprised to find myself getting even more depressed than I already
had been. I felt like I was living in hell every day of those
first two months, as my condition became progressively worse.
hurts me even to think about those awful days. I was crying out
of control every day, breaking things, and striking out at Tim.
I was so afraid of meeting people that I withdrew to the apartment,
convinced that I was the unhappiest soul on earth. I experienced
rage pouring out of every pore of my body. The worst thing, however,
was all the terrible things I told Tim to hurt him. Poor Tim.
I wonder if I could have stayed with him had the tables been turned.
I told him things like “You have made me sick!” and “You don’t
understand me” and even “I wish I had never met you!” I blamed
him for everything, just to hurt him and provoke a fight. I don’t
know how all these terrible things kept coming out of me; a part
of me was watching with embarrassment, hating myself for doing
could not stop my rage once it got triggered, making me wonder
if I was about to become crazy and die. Still, Tim stayed with
me however irrationally I behaved -- even when I was exploding
with rage. After I realized that he did not get angry despite
my repeated provocations during the first 2 months, my irrational
rage began to subside. We still had minor quarrels once a week
for no apparent reason. However, during the weekly session, Dr.
Ishizuka would analyze our daily self-tracking graphs, explaining
that the real reason for our blowups was our advancing closeness
with each other. We would be reassured by our weekly sessions
and would get even closer -- and have more fights. But a clear
difference from the past was our ability to overcome these fights
on our own, since we understood why I became irrational. Since
we knew the cause, we were no longer afraid of my loss of control.
We could talk our way out of confrontations, knowing that we could
get even closer after each fight.
the end of fourth month, we became able to speak our minds calmly,
instead of [responding to conflict with confrontations that led
to irrational behavior and] uncontrollable tears on my part. As
our relationship continued to improve, I became much more stable.
I started going to my classes and meeting people again. That was
when Tim became depressed, to my surprise. Dr. Ishizuka told us,
“It is natural for Tim to become depressed now. In fact, his
depression is proof of Jane’s breakthrough. You should celebrate
to Tim’s depression, which made him depend on me, I understood
for the first time what extraordinary sacrifices he had made for
me and what precious favors he had done for me when I was in distress.
I realized for the first time how hard and frustrating it is to
watch a loved one cry nonstop without being able to cheer him
up. I thought that I had been the only one suffering when I was
in distress. I realized that it was so painful to watch one’s
partner suffer. Fortunately, Tim recovered from his depression
in 2 weeks.
depression [enabled us to] build “two pipelines of closeness”
-- one for giving and another for receiving. Lifetrack therapy
has cleared the clogged pipelines of communication between us,
enabling us to give and receive without restriction. After 6 months
of therapy, either one of us can still become shaky at times.
However, that does not bother us at all anymore. I know he loves
me, and he knows I love him. We are ready to step in and help
each other anytime.
world around us appears to be truly shining. I now enjoy inviting
my friends for parties at home, going out for fun, eating out,
and so on. Every day is fulfilling and energizing. And each day
I feel happier than I did the day before!
am sure you won’t believe me, but this is my reality. I am deeply
grateful to Tim and Dr. Ishizuka, who have transformed the terrible
me of 6 months ago into the new me! Thank you! Truly, thank you!
Thank you also to Daisy (a golden retriever, who welcomed me every
time as if I was her best friend).
if you are in therapy now, do not give up! Do not worry; you absolutely
will get better, however difficult and hopeless you may feel now.
I too often felt trapped in a tunnel without an exit. I was convinced
that I would never get out of the darkness. Many times I thought
of killing myself. Still, I persisted and eventually saw the light
at the end of the long tunnel. Please do not give up until you
too come out of the darkness!
about your pride. Adopt the new perspective, and learn to accept
your reality instead of despairing about it. Find meaning and
satisfaction in small things. Smile when something good happens,
decorate your room with flowers, and accept yourself for who you
are born to be happy. It is our responsibility to become happy!
for the benefit of future patients)
Jane's Graphs and Dr. Ishizuka's Analyses
Tim,a student in his 20s, met Jane 2 years ago and started
living with her a year ago. Several months after they started
living together, Jane became tense, irritable, emotionally unstable,
and volatile. He went through the typical struggle of living with
a borderline personality. He wrote the following after they had
completed 6 months of Lifetrack therapy.
been 6 months since we started therapy with Dr. Ishizuka. I was
constantly tense and pressured, carefully choosing every word
[so as] not to provoke Jane into rage. She would fly off the handle
at the drop of a hat, often becoming violent in her rage against
me. I would always apologize to her, all the while wondering why
she would get so mad about everything I did. I found Dr. Ishizuka
through a friend, when Jane’s frequent bouts of rage escalated
to the point that professional help was obviously needed.
During the first session, Dr. Ishizuka introduced us to the Lifetrack
Total Adjustment Sheet and told us, “You must try to think, feel,
and act in such ways that will increase your closeness. You must
get closer even when you are in distress, accepting Jane unconditionally,
whatever she may say or do.” I thought to myself, “She will
soon get better, if I just persevere for a while.”
That was just the beginning
of the unimaginable challenge I faced. As therapy started, instead
of getting better, Jane clearly got worse day by day! She would
strike me in rage, screaming profanities, throwing things at me,
blaming everything on me, and even running away from home (five
times!). She regularly refused to go to weekly therapy sessions.
I even bought an airline ticket to send her home.
Dr. Ishizuka had warned
me that her condition would first worsen, so I managed to control
myself during the first 2 months. Still, I could not help resenting
her for getting angry at me for nothing and for constantly crying,
getting depressed, and often threatening suicide. During the third
month, I could no longer control my emotions and we had a big
fight, which I had tried so hard to avoid. It took 2 weeks to
make up; in our sessions during these weeks, Dr. Ishizuka would
sometimes smile, saying, “Her guerrilla has succeeded in provoking
your defense.” Still, even during these difficult weeks, I felt
genuinely happy on those rare days when [Jane] was well. I would
wonder how happy I would be once Jane was really transformed,
as the doctor had confidently predicted she would be.
Toward the end of the
third month of therapy, at long last, she started getting better.
In fact, she was clearly better than ever before. Instead of being
happy with her progress, I was astonished to find myself becoming
severely depressed. I lost interest in everything, cried for no
reason, avoided people, and withdrew in our apartment for 2 weeks
[because I felt] unable to go to school. However, Jane was extremely
kind and supportive, trying to comfort me in my depression. I
could not accept my dependence on her; I wanted to push her away
and to be left alone.
Dr. Ishizuka had long
predicted that I would get depressed when Jane made sufficient
progress. He actually congratulated me for finally getting depressed,
as it was a necessary step for us to go through in order to transform
ourselves. Hard as it was for me, my depression helped me to understand
Jane’s pain and also to accept and depend on her. Through my
own depression, we finally established a truly equal and interdependent
Thus, 6 months have
passed -- a truly eventful 6 months! We still have small quarrels,
maybe once a month, but we can calmly talk our way out of confrontations
without escalating into all-out war as before. Most importantly,
we can now give support to, and receive help from, each other
when in distress.
In writing this, I
could not help wondering how I have been able to persevere through
such a difficult struggle in therapy for 6 long months. Then I
remembered what I had said during one of the therapy sessions:
“I knew and loved her before she got worse.” I suppose I wanted
her to return to the way she was before so that we could share
fun and happiness together again. However, I now realize that
she is much better than she used to be, and I love her more than
I feel so profoundly
happy now that I am convinced that the 6 months have been well
spent. I wish to encourage those who are struggling in therapy
with an abusive partner with borderline personality. Please persevere.
Those terrible words and deeds are not what your partner really
means. Try to put yourself in your suffering partner’s shoes.
Try to be close to him or her. Your partner will be mad and abuse
you if you are close but will grow even angrier if you do not
stay close while he or she is abusing you! If your partner is
a woman, be patient, understanding, and caring instead of retaliating
in anger. If your partner is a man, please ask the doctor [to
recommend an approach].
I do understand how
difficult it is to put up with such abuse; you feel like complaining,
protesting, and crying in desperation. But that won’t work with
the guerrilla in your partner. The only effective countermeasure
against guerrilla attacks is to be tender and caring. If you persevere
and stick to the tenderness offensive, the guerrilla in your partner
will eventually be exhausted and disappear. You are conducting
a war of attrition against a determined guerrilla. The duration
of the struggle against the guerrilla may vary, but you must persevere
and outlast the guerrilla in your partner. Please do not give
up. I almost gave up many times. But if you give up, you destroy
your partner’s chance for happiness, and your own. Do not lose
hope; be confident, your partner can and will change!
I sincerely thank Dr. Ishizuka. I wish his book will soon be finished.
I am also grateful to Jane because she has made me a better man
(Written for the benefit of future patients.)
Tim's Graphs and Dr. Ishizuka's Analyses
Ken, is a capable and ambitious executive in his 30's.
He volunteered for a job dabbed 'mission impossible.' He had
persuaded his 7 month pregnant wife with an infant barely one
year old and transferred himself to New York. After two months
of struggle on the 'impossible job', he became severely
depressed and made several serious sucide attempts. He was so
severely depressed and determined to kill himself that he was
put under 24-hour suicide watch for 3 weeks in the hospital. He
made a dramatic recovery through intensive daily therapy with
his wife in the hospital, focused on bringing the couple far
closer than ever before. In 2.5 month, he returned to the same
'impossible' job, directly from the hospital and did
brilliantly as if he was a different person. After performing
well for 3 subsequent years on the job, he was transfered to
his head quarters. He appears as Mike in 'Breakthrough Intimacy
- Sad to Happy through Closeness' and 'Breakthrough Intimacy -
I was transferred from LA to my company's New York office
in 1989, when Dianne was in her 8th month of pregnancy. I had
volunteered for the job, dabbed 'mission impossible'
which had caused two successive predecessors to resign. My job
was to manage sales for the North East Region with staff of 60.
As it had been rumored, I found the division in a state of
total confusion, with no organized information system, and no
way of knowing expenses accurately. Having volunteered to take
on the challenge, I worked day and night to improve sales and
management process. At home, Dianne was struggling to adjust in
the new environment while getting ready for the childbirth, and
taking care of a two-year-old son. I could hardly burden Dianne
with my own problems at work (or, so I thought).
Shortly after the birth of our second child, and during the
third months on the new job, I noticed the beginning signs of
trouble. I lost appetite, I was sleepless worrying about my
work, and I would wake up very early in the morning like
clockwork. I went to work in the morning already exhausted,
becoming increasingly unproductive, and frustrated. I could not
concentrate, I would forget important things, and could not
make decisions. I started having panic attacks on the job, and
finally confided in my superior, who was no help having his own
difficulty coping with his job.
One weekend, I could not resist the overwhelming impulse to
escape the unbearable reality, and hung myself in my garage.
However, I failed to complete the act. Dianne discovered my
attempt, and I promised in tears never to kill myself. And yet
during the following night, I was again overwhelmed by the
desire to die, and took the pills that I had bought for the
purpose and fell asleep. However, I was surprised and
disappointed to have woken up the next morning, apparently
having vomited during the night sufficient amount of pills to
survive. Dianne called my superiors, and I was taken to Dr.
Ishizuka's office and was immediately hospitalized for
severe depression. That was the end of January 1990.
Once in the hospital, I started recovering, although I felt
uncomfortable with my roommate and being in a mental hospital.
Still, being away from work helped. I felt less anxious
becoming able to sleep. Therapy started as soon as I could talk
after admission in the hospital, with Dianne participating in
daily two-hour sessions. After I was no longer restricted to
the unit, all subsequent joint therapy session was conducted in
his office outside of the hospital. Dr. Ishizuka made Dianne
and me performed daily self-rating on 41 parameters
encompassing three key spheres of personality -- self,
intimacy, and achievement. Dianne drove daily 65 miles each way
to participate in daily sessions. I cannot thank her enough for
her superhuman effort during the two-and-a-half months.
Dr. Ishizuka's treatment was unique, with discussion
ranging widely from business, marketing, organizational theory,
marketing, relationship with superiors, religion, philosophy,
art, and even to his own encounter with his wife. Dr. also gave
me 'Tennis Therapy' taking me to his club to play
tennis, when he learned that I had played tennis in college.
When I had largely recovered, we were invited for lunch at his
The most important and consistent theme of his therapy approach
however, is to encourage us 'to get closer to each
other.' His encouragement went beyond discussions during
the sessions, but extended to letting me go out on pass from
the hospital to have lunch with Dianne in town (Rye), shopping,
taking walks, and having fun. Although I was still an inpatient
of a mental hospital, presumably depressed, I was enjoying
wonderful quality time with Dianne, deepening our mutual
affection, as if we were on vacation.
Towards the end of two and a half month in the hospital, I was
allowed to visit and stay overnight at my home over the
weekends. During the last three weeks in the hospital, I
returned progressively to work, commuting from the hospital.
Thus, by the time I was formerly discharged from the hospital,
I had already been back on my job for three weeks.
Our company practice has been that once an executive has a
'nervous breakdown' on a job, he will be reassigned to
a less stressful job when he recovers and returns to work.
However, in my case, thanks to Dr. Ishizuka's strong
recommendation, I was allowed to return to the same
'mission impossible.' To everyone's surprise, I was
able to face the same organization, the same people, and the
same chaos, with calmness and ease. Accurate recognition
gained in therapy made priorities clear, and I was able to
focus on the key issues. I was able to recognize what is
possible and not possible at any given time, fully accepting my
limitations. I was much more effective at work than before, and
I made it a point to share my problems and successes at work
with Dianne as I had learned in therapy. It was a big change,
since I used to avoid talking about work with Dianne, not to
burden her, and also to forget about my work once at home.
The therapy session continued for six months with diminishing
frequency after I left the hospital, regularly reviewing what
was going on at work and at home for doctor's advice.
Then, our company decided to move our division to a Southern
state and reconstitute my division from the scratch. I was
responsible for hiring and training 20 local staff, and opening
a new branch office. During the last three years on this
assignment, I have gained much confidence, having overcome many
challenges that would certainly have overwhelmed me driving me
into panic in the past. I am successfully completing three
years on the current assignment, and being transferred back to
corporate headquarters. I have been very happy during the last
three years, enjoying happy family life, gaining friends, while
growing professionally, building strong and positive
relationships of trust and respect with local staff as well as
with my headquarters. Despite my personal crises three years
ago, our two children have grown healthy and well adjusted in
their new environment.
I cannot thank Dr. Ishizuka enough for all this.
Ken's Graphs and Dr. Ishizuka's Analyses